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Confrontation

So--many of you know that my name was blasted out there.....everything has come out in the family because that person called my mom and told my mom what she was reading....

coping skills

Lately I have developed a new system of dealing with my emotions...

I simply write the emotion at the top of the page and then on another sheet of paper, I write another emotion.....then when I've collected all the emotions in a nice neat pile, I go back to the first emotion I wrote and write out why I feel that way....I set a timer and only allow myself to brainstorm for a few minutes before moving on to the next emotion

offended

I am offended by some of the comments that have been directed towards me on this site. I wish you all luck on your journey of healing but I will not be checking in as regularly as I was because of the offending comments. I took particular offense to one comment that implied that I didn't need to give advice because I wasn't a therapist but rather tell about my experience. I was offended by that comment because the person who posted it didn't look at all the comments shared between the person posting the original comment and I in the past and I was building on those comments.

My abuser

 

SHAWN EDWARD CONWAY

CHRISTOPHER LEE CONWAY

TREVOR TERRELL JONES

 

I just had to tell....it's part of my healing process...

forgiveness

I have decided before I work on anything else, I will work on forgiving myself for not opening my mouth and telling my mom and dad about the abuse that my older 2 brothers were putting me through. Maybe it's possible that they truly didn't know. I just think that since my dad was a police officer, he probably knew, he just didn't want to admit that it was going on inside his own house. I don't know if I can ever talk to my mom and dad about this, but I have found my best friend can truly be trusted with the knowledge and knowing has deepened our friendship.

My promise to myself

 

I will attempt to validate my feelings everyday.

I will attempt to share my story and take comfort that I'm not the only one out there.

I will attempt to overcome the power my abuser still holds over me including missing family dinners because he will be there.

I will attempt to help others heal by telling my story and listening to theirs.

I will attempt to continue in my life while dealing with all these factors.

I will attempt to forgive myself and God for what happened to me and maybe even go back to church one day.

my story

My name is Misty and I am almost 30 years old. I was molested by my older 2 brothers and a neighborhood kid for almost 5 years, from age 8-13. I am not my family's secret because my family doesn't know. I have never told anyone, I am too ashamed. My childhood therapist doesn't even know and I can never tell my mom or dad. I'm pretty sure at my parent's age, they would have a stroke! And then I would lose the only people in my life that love me for me and not because of my past, nor my future.

my story

My name is Misty and I am almost 30 years old. I was molested by my older 2 brothers and a neighborhood kid for almost 5 years, from age 8-13. I am not my family's secret because my family doesn't know. I have never told anyone, I am too ashamed. My childhood therapist doesn't even know and I can never tell my mom or dad. I'm pretty sure at my parent's age, they would have a stroke! And then I would lose the only people in my life that love me for me and not because of my past, nor my future.

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About Stacey Lannert

Stacey is free. In January 2009, Missouri Governor Matt Blunt commuted her sentence of life without parole. She is currently speaking out about sexual abuse and sharing her message of love, healing and forgiveness.

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